– KDKK –

There are some things that I have recently gotten off of my chest.

I’ve been talking to some people in my life about how I feel.

One thing that I will say is that I’m tired of being the bigger person in every situation.

I’m tired of apologizing for shit that I never did in every situation.

It’s mad tiring.

I’m disgusted by the fact that people want me to live up to their expectations and do everything by their book but won’t let me live up to my own means and do the things I want to in my own life.

Everyone has such an opinion about what I do.

It’s honestly real negative all of the time.

I don’t feel like people have enough faith in me like I thought they did.

Live by your own rules.

Set boundaries.

Have rules.

Whatever works for you.

Being forced to do things will only make matters worse sometimes.

I asked my cousins the other day why are families, especially black families so stuck on someone mistreating a person first instead of them actually treating someone right before they even meet someone…

It’s like they worry about someone treating you bad that they don’t even notice how good this person actually is to you.

And if the person is TOO good, they just know something is bound to change in a matter of time.

I feel like its personal problems within themselves.

Meanwhile I have never said anything before, but I definitely have an open mouth about a lot of things now.

I don’t have to do shit for anybody.

I live my own life.

I do what I want.

I take care of myself.

I take care of my kids.

I take care of my own.

I don’t ask nobody for shit.

I love it this way.

-Kayonia 🖤🖤🤍🤍